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night tv free.  although today I decided the tv thing abstinence needs to be not about abstinence but moderated tv viewing, or deliberately selective.  Still will bag one more tv free night.

had  a massive headache today - who wouldve thought t-doxing fro tv would result in that.  Although I think it is stress work induced...I'm still not really sure how I can get out of the crosswinds on that front.  Today. I felt like going to the gym, and not going back to work afterwards.  Its sad, becasue I use to love my workplace and work, but now I'm finding I'm letting it suck energy.  Its also sad to because there remain some awesome people, but I'm not finding my work "meaningful" or purposeful.  Hmmmmmmm.  And i get most frustrated at people who just appear to have no values and a basic collegial respect.  Rant~!  Or maybe I get frustrated most at that I feel I cant change the situation I am in, but I need to protect myself in terms of "what next".

Went to the PT's rpm session today.  yeah, it was ok.  He played an ALL  standing track 3,  And track 7 was pretty much all standing also.  What this teaches me is: Sometimes, you have to break the rules ? (although some people would argue: you must at all times obey the rules.  Struggling with this~!

Sat next door to the BBL.  She's got pretty good rythm.  I like and respect that.  Sometimes I reckon she cruises in RPM, but that's simply because she does other hard workouts - like instruct BBL.  Today though I reckon she was pretty much giving it all she had.  So, that kind of helped me lift my ride too.  I reckon I can pedal faster than she can - go figure, I don't really understand that - or maybe its just becasue I have longer legs! although I certainly can't stretch like she can!