Mistakes

Today I made stuuuuuuuupid dumb mistakes at work - like the most basic of typos in a contract letter with a provider.  An embarasssingly one for my employer if it had gone to the provider.  Embarassing enough for me to have made it.  I also made another simple and easy task much more complicated than it needed to be.

An unintended consequence of the stress at work, I guess.  I go dyslexic.  I just cant see the stuff. 

Yeah, maybe there is a metaphor there - sometimes I just can't see stuff until it is too late.

As hazy as some things may be, and aside from the fact that I really did make mistakes today, I am confident in my asssessment of the man I was angry with.  He has a dark side.  I just never saw it.

I have a weak side, and he has exposed it.  These two things coming together, well...I can only hope that the fact that is resulting in a lot of self reflection,  does eventually result in a better outcome in terms of the wider journery

.Anyway, this is what happens when I don't execise for FOUR weeks, I spin out.  Things don't quite align.

I am no longer angry about the stuff - I've made the decision to no longer fight but o "surrender"  Sometimes thats the best way to win a fight.  It is what I have to do.   And as much as I think I'm 100% cool with it, there is still something kicking around in my soul and body that is clearly unsettled.

The only thing I must fight for now, is to regroup myself, get back into training, and find the right space and place I'm meant to be in.

The knee is better.  If I an fix my tyre (again) I might actually try a ride for a few km this weekend.

Definitely will get get a swim in on Sunday.


Anyhow, not the best of days today. And will come as no surprise given the above, I didn't get to Bodybalance!