Pull down

Made it to the gym today.  First time I think in about 3 weeks.  Didn't actually do a lot!  Did a few lat pull down sets and some other arms exercises, a few sets of sit ups and some stretches.  Did a few leg things on the lowest of leg weights, and good feel the pinch.  Even still walking up the gym stairs.

Still that's more than any other lunchtime over the last 3 weeks.  Felt strange not to be getting changed for rpm.  But good to be in the positive environment of the gym.

When I was in the stretching area, which I note can get rather cramped at peak hour lunch time, the PT man came with a client and located himself, with his client, next to me.  I guess it was the most logical space in terms of space available.  And then....he massaged his clients leg.  Just where I would quite like mine massaged.  And in that moment I had massage envy! if there is such a thing.  Although it was tempered to a degree that it was the PT man.  Although he looked like he knew what he was doing.

My colleague who I sit next door to at work is a Feldenkrais practitioner.  She has offered to do something for my knee.  Probably not as manipulative as the PT.  Anyway, I think she is OK so I amy let her!

As for the meeting that occcured today.  It was Ok.   I think my points are understood as valid in terms of the process or lack of process that has occured.  I realised today I am a little bit angry with certain people.  Anger that I think is justified.  But there is no use hanging onto that anger.  It's happened.  I'm pissed at certain aspects, but I said (on this blog!) if it came down to principles then I would stand by them.  That's what I did.  The consequence is my contract wont be renewed, when it could have been.  But I just have to remember, it was only ever meant to be a short term gig.  And in leaving, it frees me up for other stuff, even if I don't know what that stuff is.

I see there is a Goethe Inst/Listener comp on to write a modern fairy tale based on the Grimm brothers.  I might give it a go!  Fairy tales normally have three of something in eg three little pigs.  Hmm, I might try and make it a sort of updated version of Gliding On but in a fairy tale/Grimms brothers format.  Might keep me amused, and I reckon I could make it work.  Must check when the closing date is.

In the meantime, now I focus seriously on healing my leg, and not using my energy on anger, but on finding a job that will pay my mortgage.